College life

Finally i had started my college life officially.

But it will be the orientation pro-gramme for this two weeks.

I was not really adapt well in the new environment yet, right now.

I can tell that it was a totally different environment if compared to secondary school.

Firstly,

I don't know anyone in my class.

Second,

The environment in the college is completely new for me.

Third,

No uniforms....

and lastly,

i have to be more independent.

of course there are a lot more reasons for why i have this kind of feelings...

Actually,

I really afraid of the decision i made.

I'm afraid that i will choose the wrong decision...

And that wrong decision maybe can simply lead me to failure and ruin my future.

I know what i interested in...

i know my goal,

i know my aim,

but still,

it has a long way to go through,

and of course the pathway that i choose maybe will have a lot of challenge.

Maybe i had left my school life for quite a long time,

therefore i am confuse about everything,

and afraid.

My mom was telling me:

"You can do it, you haven't start the course yet,how you know you can't do it???"

I was like:"i know...but i'm still afraid of something..."

My mom then reply me:

"It's nothing, you just need to focus and be more alert in everything.Just try to adapt it.."

Maybe they don't know that sometimes i'm quite stressful...

the burden on me is very heavy...

Sometimes i was thinking,where is my confident???

I used to be a very confident person...

Maybe my journey is only about to start,

It's same as a game...a RPG game...

when you start a new game,

the level of the characters will be low.

and you must go through all the battles and story just to gain your EXP point...

Then at the end,

you will be able to defeat the boss and approach the goal...

I hope that the new life in college is better.